tired of the grind
posted Fri, 05 Mar 2004 16:52:26 -0800
Here I sit, the end of the work day, the end of the work week. and I’m soooo tired. This job drains the life out of me. I’ve been with this company for almost 6 years, and I’ve lost my passion for what I do. And I’m not happy here any more. It’s no fun to do a job that you don’t have a passion for. I thought it was the company. But I’ve looked for other work in the same field and I just can’t bring myself to get excited about any jobs I’ve seen out there. I’ve even interviewed for a half a dozen jobs in the last 6 months, and I think they can see it in my eyes. That I don’t have the passion they are looking for. And they don’t hire me. So I’m stuck here. Working to live. To pay the bills. To buy food. But this job stopped satisfying me ages ago. And I’m tired and unhappy here, every day.
People say that you should figure out what it is you love to do and do that for a living. That way you can be happy every day, and getting paid to work is just a bonus. But what if what I love to do is a job that no one is hiring for. The industry is so slow these days, it will be months if not years before I can find a job doing what I want to do, instead of what I have to do. I guess I’ll just keep waiting, and hoping for that silver lining to come shining through. It will happen for me. One day. In know it.